She’s revealed her struggle to the world.
Mariah Carey has revealed that nearly two decades ago, she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. She was diagnosed with Bipolar II disorder in 2001 and was afraid it becoming public. She discussed the stress it gave her over the years in an interview with People.
She had been hospitalized for a mental breakdown that year. It was just ahead of the release of “Glitter.”
“Until recently I lived in denial and isolation and in constant fear someone would expose me,” she told the mag. “It was too heavy a burden to carry and I simply couldn’t do that anymore. I sought and received treatment, I put positive people around me and I got back to doing what I love — writing songs and making music.”
“I was working and working and working … I was irritable and in constant fear of letting people down. It turns out that I was experiencing a form of mania. Eventually I would just hit a wall. I guess my depressive episodes were characterized by having very low energy. I would feel so lonely and sad — even guilty that I wasn’t doing what I needed to be doing for my career.”
Mariah also said she avoided treatment until more recently after several hard years where she struggled with the disease.
She also discussed how she now feels comfortable talking about it and no longer fears what will happen if people know. “I’m comfortable discussing my struggles with bipolar II disorder,” she said. “I’m hopeful we can get to a place where the stigma is lifted from people going through anything alone. It can be incredibly isolating. It does not have to define you and I refuse to allow it to define me or control me.”